Sebastien, get out of the way!

I want to be like this!   I want to have that!   I want to go there! This very thought of «I want" is the source of my attachement and identification to the personality.  When Sebastien wants to be this or that, instead of letting life moves through me, he tries to shape the experience of life and direct it in the way of his desires. Not that this is wrong, but it is a great power to be aware of it and even more, it is the required integration to go beyond illusion. Wanting to "be something" is where starts the rejection of how i am, of who i really am! The insidious idea that i should be different somehow, the root of the concept of imperfection. It is where I stop to be truly free and authentic because i try to become «a better myself» or have a «better experience of life». But if life can manifest what Sebastien wants and needs, how much can it manifest for itself, in it’s own free expression? Letting life using me and plays with itself have a much more powerful capacity of manifestation and fulfillment than the limited version i could ever imagine. It is not that i should not reach nothing or avoid any action, no! There is an impulse of action coming from my core; it is not revealed by thoughts and desires but by a call, a divine aspiration. It is the genuine desires of life to unfold and experience itself, the polarity / law of attraction in its first, original manifestation. It is not an action in order to reach something but for the purpose of experiencing. « The origine of Life is God’s desire to know Itself » What will happen when i remove all the «this and that» and the only remaining concept of desire will be to be? What I believe to be is the only veil between me and the Beloved. Personal desires feed that belief. I’m fed up! Sebastien, get out of the way!